then i went and spent 400 bucks on this

146

Thu, 24 Dec 2009 07:58:59 GMT

I'm almost ready.

Almost ready to give myself completely to you. Almost ready to let down my guard and let you in. Almost ready to pick up where we left off. Almost ready to accept that you love me....

almost.

<3

[i just really don't want to get hurt again.]

145

Fri, 01 May 2009 01:15:10 GMT

Driving home today in the sunshine was bittersweet knowing you'll never again be able to enjoy how beautiful life can be. It's difficult for me to understand why you did this. How can I let go when I never really got to say goodbye? I know now what you meant when you said we had a special connection. We did. I took it out of context and had I just come to you for an explanation, maybe things would be different. I guess you came to the realization that this was the only way out. You were the best friend anyone could ever ask for and I'm sorry I never told you that. I can't forgive you for this. I suppose all I can do now is thank you for being apart of my life and hold on to the memories that we made for the rest of my long life. I'll miss you more than you could ever know.

Ryan Andrew Hargrave
8/12/83-4/20/09
<3

144

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 17:35:24 GMT

Remember that time...

*you graveled me with tater tots?
*I kicked your ass in Soul Caliber II?
*I kicked your ass in Monkey Bowling?
*we narrowly escaped death when walking to WinCo?
*we initiated Margarita Night, and Wine Night, and Frat Kid Beer Night?
*we built a fort in the living room?
*we had this interaction, ME:"Harbinger, you didn't flush the toilet. You left me presents."
You:"YES I DID! We do not have industrial strength toilets Trisha. It's gonna take more than one flush to get all that shit down."
*and this one, You:"Trisha why can't I pump gas? Nothing's coming out.:
Me:"That's because you have to push where is says push here in order for it to work."
*we went on an adventure and came home with a cat?
*we made a deal that you needed to live 100 more years from the day you got banished from WinCo so you could go back and steal another Odwalla bar?
*you set the kitchen on fire?
*you set the kitchen on fire, again!?
*I borrowed you copy of haunted? [I never gave it back, sorry]
*we used to go to IHOP every week for breakfast?
*you made the Champagne Room?
*sam robo tripped in the living room by himself?
*we had an adventure in the woods and found a tree house?
*I convinced you to be a hooker for Halloween and you let me do your make up, glitter and all?
*I accidentally threw out your shower curtain? [I never did buy you a new one.]
*you promised me you'd never do this?

It was never supposed to be like this. We never really got to say goodbye. You were more than just an old roommate, you were an amazing friend. One of the best.

I miss you already.

143

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 05:27:55 GMT

I have less than 300 hours left in school. I should be a Licensed Cosmetologist by the end of April! OH YES!

142

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 07:17:37 GMT

When it's good, it's really fuckin' good. But when it's bad, it gets ugly.

141

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 19:12:12 GMT

Loooong time no post, eh? I've been on a month long break from school. Hopefully the remodel with look really sharp. It's going really well, but goodness if I never do another perm or rollerset, it would be too soon! I should graduate by the end of march/ beginning of april depending on my hours.

*New ink today!!!

140

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 04:51:24 GMT

i'm fucked. you don't happen to have $160 just, ya know, laying about? i didn't think so.

shiiiiiv

139

Thu, 23 Oct 2008 03:39:20 GMT

This is exactly the type of shit that is pissing me the fuck off. I don't know the rules, so stop playing games.

138

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 01:05:41 GMT

I hate that things had to end this way. The sad thing is, you have no idea that it was your own actions that got this ball rolling. It was fun. Thanks for the memories.

137

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 07:16:42 GMT

new tattoo. yes?

136

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 09:25:06 GMT

i think i'm going to start bloggin' it up again.

UPDATE:
-i quit Daiso. moved back home. start school in April.
-i've fallen in love with Jim Sturgess. i'm going to have his babies.
-i decided cowboy boots are pretty much my favorite things ever. too bad i left mine in F-Dub.
-i caught a pretty nasty cold. i'm almost human again.
-i'm contemplating growing my hairzzz out. i'm tired of looking like a little boy.
-i still love Lanny and if she doesn't call me tomorrow, i'm breaking up with her.

185

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 04:08:03 GMT

i'm not dead....just resting.

184

Wed, 09 May 2007 17:27:32 GMT

work is good. i get to stock chopsticks and things all day long. i'm getting better at japanese greetings.

also in mall related news: sanjaya will be in the commons today. hopefully the turn out will be small. i mean he's precious, but he can't sing for shit.

183

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 00:58:41 GMT

i found a house for rent. i want it. i got a job at daiso. i hate paul and our monitor broke this morning. yeah.

i miss lanny and mel :[

[*edit* derrick and i looked at the house. i changed my mind. walking down a zillion stair and no driveway blech.]

182

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 04:41:50 GMT

181

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 07:27:42 GMT

I'm so hardcore. Me and Buzz went to the mall today, and I stole a whole heap of stuff. I got a Good Charlotte CD, a couple of DVDs and some new boots. Buzz got caught, but he fought his way out, and then we stole some lady's car and smashed it into a phone booth.

Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's some photos of my cock.

I want to say thanks to Babybob556 for making the background and icons for my journal. Thanks hon, ur super special!

I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, which makes me different enough to be interesting, but the same as all the other cool people with bipolar disorder.

You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you you're a moron.

ass to mouth...

That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm beautiful.

180

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 19:58:13 GMT

shrooms was fun.

until it wasn't.

179

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 18:13:51 GMT

twenty-three

178

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 04:24:16 GMT

remember when people used to give a shit?

177

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 03:35:15 GMT

attn:Federal Way
come March 30th i will moving to you. and not just for weekends anymore. yes and yes.

[btw!someone take me to lunch and tell me i'm pretty. i'm stretched so thin and about to break]

176

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 05:16:31 GMT

copied keke. [i really didn't need this quizz to tell me i'm poor. duh!]

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175

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 01:14:15 GMT

I'm going to miss anna nicle smith, she was such a pig, I remember her grabbing a pig before she become one and got fat and died yesterday.

I'm going to miss that big fat pig anna smith.

[gothiczartan is my most favorite friend on myspace. and the above statements my friend, are why]

oh hey! my vacation has officially started. hell to the yessss.

174

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 19:14:30 GMT

i'm worried my depression has made me drive the people i care about away.

except my mother...damn

173

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 08:54:50 GMT

i really wanted what everyone said about you to be wrong. i don't let just anyone into my life and friendships are something that i treasure. i still have faith in you. please prove what i'm starting to think wrong.

172

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 07:52:35 GMT

my tattoos are scabbing up and i'm pretty sure a big piece of scab fell in some popcorn today. i keep getting nose bleeds and i can't seem to shake this cold. i think i need to see a doctor about my supposed depression. i'm feeling overwhelmed and overworked. although, i'd rather stick a dick in my eye than go back on meds. i think gettin' a goldfish would cheer me up.

so far so good 2007. keep up the good work.
dick